Nothing beats a repressive state like gym & chips.

Now is the time to enjoy people. 2026 is dedicated to face to face interactions.

Bad economic situation demands social interactions. I started 2026 by spending more time with friends, making a concious effort. In New Zealand Christmas time means summer holidays, which is the social time of the year.

My school finished end of last year and I have been looking for work for months. It is quite depressing when your echo does not bounce back. So it has been beautiful to take this time to spend with people that want to know how you are doing.

I made a deal with myself to write everyday this year. Getting back into writing after years of minimal words on paper feels actually so good. I have been digging up all my old writings and reading my journal really led me to realise that I have been repressing myself to fit into a mold I should’t have been trying to fit in.

Nothing beats a repressive state like chips and gym.

I like the thin cut ones. Crispy and thin, melts on your tongue. Even better when between in a sandwich.

I like my weights resistant enough to silence my mind. Thoughts dripping out of my body like an ocean spray. Thoughts that form letters on my screen.

I am both weak and strong.

Balance in everything.

I am both repressed and driven. The complexity of human emotions fully lived. Experienced in visceral level never to be forgotten how being alive really feels.

I am living in my complex era where rejection is fuel that slides off my back into the gutter. Where the faces of distain and arrogance melt into the soil in which I walk upon in my red soled shoes.

I am both living and dying a little. Living my best life. Dying on my way toward the end. Balance in everything.

Just to be your own muse.

Tea